Happy #SelfLoveSuperBowlSunday readers!
Haha…don’t worry, we won’t be discussing football. You wouldn’t want me to anyway. All I could tell you about it is perhaps a few team colors and who has the cutest butts! Guess that makes me the typical American girl, right? Well regardless if you like football or not…today we are once again discussing the topic of self love.
This week I asked my POPster friend Madelyn to be our guest blogger on the topic! When I asked her, she was slightly hesitant, explaining to me that she wasn’t in the best place with self love at the moment…but I told her if she were comfortable I would love for her to write about the struggles she’s experienced/is experiencing. After all, self love is not always sunshine and flowers. We all have moments, days, or even weeks we fall into the rut. And I want my blog to cover all of it.
Today, Maddie talks about the battle with self love. She tells her story of fighting to overcome the darkness we often find ourselves wandering around in. I love her honesty and how transparent she became in writing this. She teaches us the importance of mental fitness, as it is just as important, if not more important than physical fitness.
Thank you Maddie.
“…just like working out to get your body stronger you have to train everyday to make that mind stronger.”
Last night I took my day one progress picture for PIIT 2.0. And as I’m looking at it I see a girl, a girl who is not alone. A girl who has her demons shadowing her, everyday. A girl with heavy shoulders from the daily struggles and stress she is carrying with her wherever she goes. I see a girl who hates her body, hates where her mind is, the lack of strength and faith she is feeling.
But also I see a girl who desperately wants to fighter, a girl who needs a friendly reminder of just how strong she really is.
Despite all these negative feelings going on, how much I want to curl up with my cats and to give up, I stay to fight. It took me years to learn but we are in control of these feelings, We can do something about it, we already have what it takes. We can change those by taking responsibility and standing up to ourselves. Self-love and respect is a constant journey that is always going up and down because we are human. That’s how life works so we have to learn how to handle it and save ourselves. We gotta snap ourselves out of the rut.
How many times have you talked to family, friends, your therapist, looked up youtube videos on tips to digging yourself out of this feeling. We know what they will all say, it doesn’t matter how many times you’ve heard it, in the end its still up to us to get the fudge out and to start being and living again.
After my workout I made a bowl, a big bowl, of popcorn and watched a documentary about Hayao Miyazaki. This adorable man who has made some of the greatest films of all time, he suffers for manic depression. Cassey Ho? She had an eating disorder during her bikini competitin training, she’s human and goes through all these feelings too, the queen on poppilates herself.
XOGingy, Stephanie Schultz she has her days of feeling lost.
Kate Hudson? She wrote a book to help others and to talk about her struggles and how she overcame them.
Yes even Beyoncé has her days too that she just needs to be reminded to breathe and love, love herself.
We all are human, famous or not we are wired the same, to feel all the good and bad emotions. We have to remind ourselves that it’s okay, that’s what makes up stronger. Recovery is seriously the most bad ass thing a person can do.
When I am having these dark times sometimes I just stop myself, mid sentence when I’m being a bully to myself and I scream or I make myself smile. I breathe and hug my cats or boyfriend. Just simply taking those deep breathes can be a game changer just to bring you back into the present. “I am here. I have a roof over my head. A wonderful and supportive boyfriend and friends. I have a job, I have food-well once I go grocery shopping, but I really am okay.
Why is it that we can say all these harsh, horrible and terrible things to ourselves, things that we wouldn’t even dream of saying to our family or friends. Guess what you are your family, you are your own friend too. Respect the friendship you have with yourself because in this lifetime, your body is your home. Cherish it, trust and believe in it. Sometimes I sound like a crazy person because I have fights with myself. I call myself one thing and I realize what I just said and I’ll say, um excuse me, no. You are wrong. I am enough, I am trying my hardest. I know I can do this.
I use to rely on my negative thoughts and put me downs to push myself harder and to consistently workout. Well that never ended well or with any pure happiness or those amazing things called endorphins. It left me either passing out during a workout……sweaty and over exhausted, burning way more calories then I ate in days and still that miserable negative thinking that I still didn’t do enough or burn enough was still there just telling at me. But now? Now I am constantly telling myself that I AM strong. I AM capable of amazing things. I KNOW I can do this. I AM a beast. I got this. I end each day with a smile and no regrets. This is how I need to continue to treat myself. This is who I was suppose to be. Not some 97lb 20 something year old, working my ass off and still hating and abusing myself no matter what I do or how hard I work. That girl wasn’t me. This is the real me and I am beautiful. And so are you! WE CAN DO THIS! You aren’t ever alone, no matter how alone you may feel. In this community, you are never alone. We got your back.
Live as if you’ve already made it. You’re living your dream, you’ve reached your goal. You’re shaking hands with Dumbledore. You’ve won the house cup.
Oh and it will happen. You just have to go for it! You can’t control what happens in life but you can control you! Your success and your happiness!
Success happens because of the person you become. You gotta work everyday to training that mindset of I can’t. I know, it is hard but just like working out to get your body stronger you have to train everyday to make that mind stronger.
I know what you are capable, the world is yours. Now it’s your turn to rise up, recognize and own that s***.
Love you popsters! And thank you so much to Blogibabe for reaching out to me to write a blog post. I was in a dark place so I wasn’t sure if I could but I think this is what I needed to get out of it-I appreciate you ALL so much! Thank you!
“And then one day, I discovered my own light, my own inner-gangster. I snatched my power back and the game changed.”
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