January

“Sometimes in life, you will work your hardest only to come out with nothing, and that’s okay.”

-Myself

They say that nothing in life worth having comes easy, and I have always believed them. What I didn’t see coming was a time when I would put in the hard work, and still come out with nothing.

We are only one month into the new year.

One month and I have already stressed out. I have already cried. I have already broken down, on numerous occasion.

For many people, that one month would have been enough to sort the year 2016 into the “bad year” file.

Not me…

You wanna know why? Because this is my year to grow.

I have always prided myself on being a very hard and dedicated worker. Give me a job, and I am going to do it to the very best of my ability and beyond! I was the kind to stay up late working on school projects until they were absolute perfection. If I suddenly have an idea that excites me, I execute my plan no matter what I have going on!  If I want something, I don’t give up until I make it happen. I push and strain, and go through crazy measures to reach whatever I’m after. I enjoy being good at what I do and never giving up.

I work hard for results, and I always got them.

Until now…

Throughout the past couple weeks, I have been jumping through every hoop you could imagine to make something possible. I wanted something and I worked my ass off to try and make it happen. From day one it looked nearly impossible, but I didn’t care. My mind was made up.

First I made a plan. It was a pretty solid one that I could follow through with, but it became a lot more complicated every step of the way. Little by little and one by one, problems began to pop up. I took care of them as they came and went about my business. But with each new problem I got more and more discouraged and stressed.

I questioned myself…should I even bother? Is this worth it? Am I just trying to make something happen that never will?

No. No. No.

I had to continue.

I pushed through every obstacle, and then every time I thought I had a secure hold on things, something else fell apart. Mentally and physically, I was exhausted. The future of my goal didn’t look bright.

Then it happened…

Magically, one by one, things were falling into place. It almost seemed too good to be true, but I swore to myself it was meant to be. God’s hand was the only explanation for how perfect it all was becoming.

I told myself…I did it! I pushed through every rough patch and I just know the outcome will be good. It will all work out in my favor! All my hard work paid off!

And then…it didn’t.

I found myself, for the first time in my entire life, left empty handed after working so hard, and there was nothing I could do about it.

The equation didn’t add up for me.

Hard work equals results. Hard work equals getting what is worth having. And yet…I got nothing.

I was devastated and it left me feeling hopeless.

Naturally, however, that didn’t last long. I barely gave myself a moment to breathe before moving on to find a new solution, which to my surprise, came instantly. It took only a moment before I was celebrating again telling myself everything happens for a reason and the original plan wasn’t supposed to work so I could find this wonderful new solution that was even better!

WRONG AGAIN.

The so called “solution” I found to my original failure turned into another dead end and I was empty handed once again.

From this point, I am going to skip to the end and tell you that yes, I did find a solution. A plan, I believe, will be even better than the original. So yes, I still believe everything happens for a reason and that God is in control and that nothing in life worth having comes easy.

BUT…(I have a point)

January taught me something.

I learned that sometimes in life, you will work your very hardest only to come out with nothing, and that’s okay.

You might not always get what you think you deserve; what you worked hard for. What matters is your choice once that happens. Will you choose to stop and give up or will you turn around and keep going?

It’s okay to fail, but it’s not okay to give up.

If you come out of something with nothing, just move on to the next solution. Because let’s face it…there always is one. Your hard work is only wasted if you believe it to be so.

We are only one month into the new year.

One month and I have already learned new lessons. I have already overcome new problems. I have already begun to grow.

To grow is not a comfortable process. In fact, it is only out of our comfort zones that we can reach our full potential.

Peace, Love, & POP!

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2 comments

  1. You are amazing! God always gives you something, even when the world sees nothing. And you didn’t turn away from Him; you saw the blessing (even if you had to cry a few tears first). Let me make an amendment to that first line…You, with God, are amazing!

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  2. You are spot on! Yes, you’re not going to win everything–you can’t have everything go your way, you can’t expect the best. But you have to give it your all because you are one step closer to feeling that much better about yourself knowing that you worked hard!

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