December

“Memories take us back. Dreams take us forward.”

-Unknown

A year ago around this time, I was making a big decision. It would change plans. It would provoke judgment. It would either set me back or forward.

A year ago, I had no idea where that decision would take me or how it would effect my life, but I made it.

Have you ever had a plan set for your life, either short or long term or even in the moment? A plan you swore you’d live by until you saw it through?

But then…what if you found yourself unhappy with the plan you had made?

What if all the little things didn’t add up to what you had been striving for?

What if you simply came to a halt because you realized that nothing you were working for was anything you really wanted?

It hit me like a slap in the face.

In the final month of this year, I wanted to take a moment to look back, and as I did I realized that I have SO much to look back on.

In the past, I have had so many years of which I felt I had changed so much throughout or grown in so many ways, but there were still little things that added up to my dissatisfaction.

This year, as it comes to an end, I find myself happier and more satisfiedΒ than I have ever been before, and I believe I can give credit to one thing:

This year, I lived my life for me.

I threw out the rule book, stepped out of my comfort zone, had a little faith, and took a lot of chances.

Looking back on this year, I began by quitting school. So many people told me it was a horrible decision, but I told myself it was the best decision I had ever made. I moved back home and took my old job back. So many people saw this a step backwards, but I told myself it would take me forward. I came back to work for Disney. So many people saw it as me giving up and running away, but I told myself it was going back to where I belonged. I chose to become a fitness instructor instead of pursuing acting. So many people saw it as a dream coming to an end, but I told myself this is just the beginning…

A year ago, around this time, I took my life into my own hands. I decided against living the way others expected me to live and decided to start living for me instead. I escaped my unhappiness and not onlyΒ created an entirely different life for myself but an entirely different me who was living it.

I have never loved myself the way I do today, and I think that is so important.

Being secure in who you are, how you live, and why you do the things you do all contribute to your happiness. I have confidence in who I am and what I want out of life. I never could find that confidence living my life trying to keep up with other expectations.

As we go through the final month of the year, I encourage you all to think about what makes you unhappy in your life, and what you can do to change it. If you find yourself living for anyone but yourself, ask yourself why and what you can do about it.

What goals have you always made but never accomplished?

But also…

Take a moment to give yourself credit for how far you’ve come over the past year, because I’m positive each of us have.

We are all fighting our own battles.

Let your memories from this year take you back and make you smile, and let your dreams take you forward in a big way. Let them change your life. What may seem like the scariest decisions now may be the ones you are so happy to have made a year from now.

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